Resting in the Great Mystery

(icon of the Trinity by Andrei Rublev)

At 4:11 am my mind is racing with thoughts about a blog post I read earlier. It was an excellent blog post created to give us a better understanding of atheists through an interview format. I've been presented over the years with often untrue propaganda about the character and ethics of atheists. Sometimes out of fear, we tend to put groups of people into nice clean boxes and define and label them according to our own very ignorant understanding. I personally detest these boxes.

Anyway, from the interview with the atheist, I gained a better understanding of why it is so difficult for some to believe there is actually a Creator of the universe who is still active today. And honestly, the more educated I become, the more I struggle with my religion. But is this a bad thing? I don't think so.
The "answers" to the questions that some in the modern church have come up with in the past 200 years or so are often just plain ludicrous to me.

Some in the modern Christian church have attempted to provide evidence and answers for all things Christian. This is in response to the age of reason. In my opinion, this is a grave mistake and it has really hurt the church. The very core foundation of Christianity is FAITH: believing in what you cannot see. Yet, we try so hard to come up with the answers for every question.

But how can you explain the incarnation? The virgin birth? The resurrection? Those core beliefs simply cannot be explained. They are a mystery. A beautiful mystery.

So here is where I've landed. I'm choosing to immerse myself in the great mystery of the Holy Trinity. I choose to believe and repeat the Nicene Creed each week even though I'm not sure about the Filioque. Even though I have questions about the creation of the Bible and I wrestle with some of its contents, I choose to believe that it is inspired and it is a Holy book. I'm giving myself over to the Divine. Even though some atheists will probably call me crazy. I can accept that. And even though some Christians may be uncomfortable with the fact that I have some doubts and questions. I will accept that also.

It's 5:17 and I'm going back to bed now.